ahmi-ahmi

For the Constantly-Eating Ramen College Student

2011-02-15T11:01:00.000-08:00

http://item.rakuten.co.jp/cocoa/zakka_cupmen2/#zakka_cupmen2

SO COOL.

Be back soon with recent projects.

NAILZ

2011-01-17T22:58:00.001-08:00

I LOVE NAIL POLISH. I have a million bottles, so I've told myself, ENOUGH is ENOUGH. NO MORE.

Except the other day I saw this:

YUM.

It's a bit pricey though .. $20. Must be because of all that 24k gold dust in it (no joke). BUT... last one in a while, I PROMISE!

For more delicious colors, visit Deborah Lippman (she does nail polish for designers such as Rodarte!)

Eventually I'll do a review on my favorite nail polishes... just because I have SO many.

But for now, back to my geography reading!

working on my portfolio...

2011-01-14T22:00:00.000-08:00

...and thinking about stop motion.

Have you guys seen these: Her Morning Elegance and The PEN Story? Amazing stuff.

Anyway, working on my design portfolio is super tiring. Right now, it's a bit of a hot mess, but I'll post something when I have something to post.

For now, dream about lemonade and strawberries!!!

Now Reading: The Survival of the Prettiest by Nancy Etcoff.

(This is a FASCINATING look at how beauty shapes our world. Is life better if you look more symmetrical? Why do guys like blondes? I'm totally advertising obnoxiously now, but seriously, GO READ!)

hellooo alll... hiatus over

2010-12-19T14:48:00.001-08:00

Winter Break. I figured it might be time to post something.

from: tamgutlich on etsy.

She's doing a cool 2 for 1 sale for all of December so go check her out!

Blah blah one quarter into college. Not really much to say actually. It's a very different pace from high school but I'm sure it'll pick up. Also.. I should get out of my room more. Heh.

Happy holidays everyone!! Go watch some Charlie Brown and listen to Dean Martin!!

heh.

2010-08-08T21:37:00.000-07:00

It's been a while...

I'm in the process of cleaning my bookmarks folder... there are literally hundreds of links in it.

So I thought it would be fitting to have a nice long... and I mean LONG... links post. Just to get back into the drive of things...

lawlz.

dutch people dream of the strangest but coolest designs

so I have never liked pop-tarts... but these look enticing...

politics for dummies

some of these are definitely going on my bucket list.. heehee

cute and easy to make!

not too sure what's going on because it's all to blurryyy

this is so inspiring and incredible... I really want to try something like this...

one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen

fashion photography om nom nom

who DOESN'T love P.S.?

have always wanted to travel the world...

looove colors

dream on.

good ol' sartorialist and fashion

need to find a picture? do it this way.

wear a palette.

this is always a fascinating look at identity and profiling

... Anyway I'm going to stop now.

Time to finish organzing.

Now Playing: Hey Soul Sister - Train

Now Reading: The World Without Us - Alan Weisman

chasing and wishing

2010-05-11T21:45:00.000-07:00

Some of my favorites of this shoot.

Title: Myths of the Forest
Magazine: Vogue Nippon September 2006
Model: Anja Rubik
Photographer: Carter Smith

Source: foto_decadent

Now Playing: The Scientist - Coldplay

"questions of science, science and progress

do not speak as lout as my heart..."

treehouse dreams

2010-05-11T01:10:00.000-07:00

each day

i watch as you fall in

a beautiful

terrible arch

and stand there

watching

as the forces of gravity

drag down your body

and my dreams

and our tomorrow.

School is pretty much done... which means this blog should be more active soon. Check soon for updates!

pianos tinkle at twilight

2010-04-01T00:08:00.000-07:00

i am an embarrassment to myself.

2010-03-21T23:30:00.000-07:00

heh.

Hello.. long lost blog. And blog readers.

...I am ashamed. No real explanation for this awful hiatus except... life. School. College... laziness....

Yes. Terrible.

Anyway: an update.

College admission results are starting to come in... It's strange. I feel like I'm supposed to be feeling really happy or excited... but it's mostly apathy. Shouldn't the brink of a new kind of life have some sort of thrill in it? Maybe it's because I'm still waiting on my top choice colleges.

Thinking about not leaving California but I still don't think that's really right for me. I want to do something different... get out of the California mentality for a bit. And I think being on the east coast will really challenge me to do more with myself.

We'll see after all of the decisions come in.

Let's see.. what else. School. Has been pretty lawl. I'm not really working hard in anything now except... Government and U.S. history... and... art. Hahaha... but plenty of work on clubs and such.

People-wise, I've been doing pretty well. Hanging out with friends and just having fun. I'm going to miss high school. Well.. some of it.

Turned 18.. nothing new. Should go get my ears pierced again.

AND... currently obsessed with VERONICA MARS. It's sharp, smart, funny, and pretty interesting. Plus... Logan Echolls.. love.

Went to Boiling Crab yesterday.. it was really good. Messy, a bit overrated, but good. Thank you Jessica Lin!

End rambling.

One of my new favorite blogs: http://luxirare.com/. So inspiring and beautiful. The photography is stunning. I wish I had the drive and creativity to just... do all this stuff. The crayon post heart.

More to come. Promise.

Dream, my darlings:

credit: Anna Inghardt's photostream

Now Playing: Change Me - Keri Hilson ft. Akon

failz

2010-02-01T23:30:00.000-08:00

I have attempted to post at least 4 times.. but either internet would crash or I would be overwhelmed with other things and fail to post. TOO MANY THINGS GOING ON.

So. This is just a reassurance that I WILL BE BACK (hopefully tomorrow) with a looong post about everything that is going on plus a ton of fashion tidbits.

Apologies for the inactivity...

and...
THIS IS WAY TOO COOL. I WANT TO MAKE WHATEVER SHE IS WEARING.

Now Playing: I See You - Leona Lewis
(your love shines the way into paradise..)

sheets of rain

2010-01-20T22:39:00.000-08:00

from j. crew (brasspetal.blogger.com)

Skewl. I wish I could have strutted around school like this when I was 6. Sadly, I was stranded in the land of baggy overalls and misguided fashion sense. Ah, childhood.

But seriously. Cuffed shorts, mini green bowtie, and flower crammed in a beltloop? Too good.

On another note, it's been raining like freaking crazy. I know I've said this already but AHHH it's rare in Southern California. And did you guys all know... all music sounds better in the rain. I've been just sitting in my car listening to music and dreaming of the future. And the rain looks so pretty on the streets... like flat sheets of it just curtaining on the gravel. Love.

This cracked me up.

More pictures from yesterday's lookbook requested...
so...

(I'll make them smaller so I feel less egotistical...) This was a good photoshoot. Rare.

... I was going to post some fashion editorials I loved but... kind of meh now. Tomorrow. Promise. Along with some etsy features.

Smile, darlings.

Now Playing: Everybody in Love - JLS
(EVERYBODY IN LOVE.. GO PUT YOUR HANDS UP~! <3)

tornado warning

2010-01-19T16:35:00.000-08:00

Wearing: Old Navy white tank | denim shorts | ribbed blue tights | U.O. boots | thigh high socks | handknit scarf | black cardigan

Most recent lookbook. Thanks to Yada who went a little crazy with the pictures... :)

Raining like crazy. Smells and sounds so clean and pretty.

I really love thunder. How it rolls and rumbles somewhere in the faraway clouds.

I hate being wet.

... I don't know what that all amounts to... Maybe all I need is a soundtrack of rain and thunder and a perfume bottle of the scent of rain.

But... nah. I think I'll tolerate the wetness.

From Angela. Love.

Now Playing: Blood, Tears, and Gold - HURTS
(I never let you down baby (BABY) ...)

the sun shot through the rain

2010-01-18T22:13:00.001-08:00

uhm.
Not too much to say... as you can tell from the lack of posts recently.
Saw my first horror movie yesterday... it wasn't that bad. What better way to watch a horror movie than squished between someof your favorite people, and under the warm fuzzy covers?

:)

Hummm...
So I want to start writing again. I haven't in really QUITE a while... like half a year. So. I've got something in my head... thinking about it. It will someday show up in here.

Intriguing, black, punk, and beautiful. Need to DIY this:
from: JAK & JIL

Lookbook posts coming soon!

Now Playing: Disguise - Lene Marlin
(Have you ever felt some kind, of emptiness inside...?)

and then there are days when sunlight is not enough

2010-01-14T20:28:00.000-08:00

from: national geographic || photo: Sisse Brimberg

lookbook: you wanna dance with me...?

2010-01-13T18:49:00.000-08:00

It rained today. It was my favorite kind... the misting cool-but-not-cold kind. The kind when the sun comes out after and makes you smile and laugh.

Wearing: lace cami | grey pleated skirt | black tights | brown studded boots
Lookbook.

First one in a while. I miss dressing up. Although there is always the lure of jeans and a t-shirt. Which reminds me... I want more tees. Shopping... time to revamp the closet.

Time for some random links:

Pretty sleeves.

I know Styrofoam cups are awful for the environment.. but this is AMAZING.

An eagle can kill a young deer and fly away with it. What?

So quirky and unique! Check out these humorous tights!

Photojournalism.

Chambray and studs.

That's all for now.

Smile dearies.

Now Playing: All the Right Moves - OneRepublic
(Do you think I'm special? Do you think I'm nice? Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces...?)

lusting sheer cotton

2010-01-12T22:51:00.000-08:00

An actual fashion post instead of a random photo vomit post.

DESIGNER: Therese Rawsthorne

I stumbled upon her line a couple days and have been meaning to write about her. Because she. is. amazing.

I love how her clothing has this modern, very strong look, yet is also carelessly feminine. The use of natural, plain colors in soft textures and folds in not anything particularily new I suppose, but the way Therese Rawsthorne renders her ideas into clothing is truly very elegant. However, the undone, supposedly careless look of all her work gives an impression of effortless ease. Her work is a great study in contrasts.

all photos: thereserawsthorne.com

Love the last two especially... the slightly sheer cotton tumbling off the model's frame. Gorgeous. And then the seductive bustier with the weekend sweater look. Love.

Therese is a relatively new designer, putting on her first fashion show in April 2009. I'm definitely expecting great things from her in the future.

Time to ramble about my life...

School is alright. Barely any homework except for APUSH... and I just am TOO GOOD at wasting time. I'm working on that... trying to work on my blog and fashion and etsy stuff. Scholarships too... Plenty to do. Siz hours in front of a computer doing god knows what is NOT GOOD.

Pretty excited for second semester. Time to leave behind all of the crap from previous semesters, and just... remember the people who really matter, the people I will really miss when I leave. There isn't much time left and I really want to make use of every second. I can't wait for just a lot of time with friends, one-on-one yogurt dates, or ice cream runs, or coffee breaks. Yes, I'm quite a foodie. Hopefully enough people will be free enough so that I have people to hang out with.

I will miss high school. But I think I'm ready to leave.

Speaking of food... have gained quite a few lbs. No idea why... maybe stress? (at what?) Emma and I are embarking on a serious exercise regime so we should be good.

Sunbursts are so pretty.

Anyway, painted my nails a firetruck red... I'm going to take that as a sign for more cheeriness and laughter to come. Cheers to a new year everyone.

Now Playing: Holiday - Hillary Duff... reminiscent of last year...

(Where did you go oh where did you go...?)

for john

2010-01-07T22:26:00.000-08:00

Paris in the snow.

Credits: Cherry Blossom Girl

etsy find

2010-01-07T22:12:00.000-08:00

I haven't done this is a while...

Etsy Feature: necklush - infinity multi-strand circle scarf, cowl, and necklace

I love these. They are so versatile and well. They just look cool. Not to mention they come in like a gazillion prints. Gorgeous and a really creative idea. They are featured in a ton of magazines and pulbications, so check them out!!

and if this world makes you crazy...

2010-01-06T21:03:00.000-08:00

Today was a strange day. Some days are just melancholy.

Music is beautiful.

I don't know... not much to say. I'll throw on some photos...

These girls are so cheery and full of life! And their braids are gorgeous.

I love meadows.

Sheer cloth + glasses <3

Beautiful hair.

Will update etsy soon... maybe tonight. Giveaway from my store soon!!

All photos from: i-love-idylle.blogspot.com, babysaysboutiqueblog.blogspot.com

Now Playing: True Colors - Glee Cast Version

tomorrow, fall faster towards me

2010-01-05T21:29:00.000-08:00

Three hour naps are perhaps not the best nor most productive way to spend the night. This is something to keep in mind.

AHH... sometimes it's important to be patient, shut up, and bite your mouth. Lesson learned.

Anyway, first semester is drawing to a close. I can't wait to spend some time with myself and friends and such. There will finally be time for me work on stuff I love to do ... like my fail etsy and this blog. I keep telling myself, only 6 months. Only 6 months. I can't wait.

The sunrises and sunsets have been beautiful these few days. It's the most calming, seductive part of my day. I would marry the sky if I could.

Inspiration for the next 6 months: (random photos I've saved over the last... year or so)

Now Playing: King and Queens - 30 Seconds to Mars
I've been just throwing this song on repeat for the past week. The vocals are beautiful.

A lie.

2009-12-23T20:02:00.000-08:00

Okay, so when I said I would update everyday... that was obviously... not true. Haha but I'm trying...

It's time for kind of a rambly, nonsense-filled post though. Haven't had one of those in a while.

So. Recently I've been pretty stressed with school, club stuff, college apps, people... I don't know. I suppose life is just... like that. There's always going to be stress. For now, the best way I know how to cope with everything is a cup of hot chocolate. A movie. And hanging out with a bunch of people. Not the best way, but at least it's something.

Couple (many) things that I've been thinking about:
-Thinking can be exhausting. So can not thinking. Life is just exhausting sometimes.
-I am very out of shape. But I started running... so hopefully that keeps up... xD Hopefully I will start swimming too. I LOVE SWIMMING.
-Running away from things never works. Cutting things out never works either. Confronting things is really hard. Trying to figure exactly what you want is probably the most difficult of it all.
-I'm really looking forward to college. I understand my mother has good intentions when she nags... but SERIOUSLY. I don't think I can take it much longer. I know what's wrong and right. I'll be okay.
-College apps are driving me nuts. They really make me realize how little I know about myself.
-What the hell do macaroons taste like...? I really want to try some. They are really pretty.
-How cold is 20 degrees F really...? I wonder if I can take the east coast.
-Crying at random things is a good sign that you are not okay.
-Nail painting is a HEADACHE. Few things make me as irritated as chipped nails the day you do them. ARGH.
-It really does feel good to do something for the world. Even if that means sacrificing weekends and countless hours of menial labor. It yields over $1000 so it's worth it.
-Ice skating is one of the best traditions in the world.
-Regret is one of the worst feelings in the world. I really never want to feel like I could have done better, done differently. I think I just want to live life wherever it takes me.

and lastly,
-I want to skydive.

moar links <3

2009-12-21T20:14:00.000-08:00

I have been having really bad dreams. Maybe I should try this.

Always love love love JAK&JIL but look at this inspiring photo. Humm I wanna make that.

Ecofriendly Art. God... really want to try this too.

A study in individuality and uniformity.

Reminder to self: Keep Calm and Ride On.

Have been having hot chocolate twice a day to nurse my melancholy mood. This would most definitely cheer me up.

Oh, this is so gorgeous...

It's time for some FAT KNITS.

I'm amused.

This post was done at the same time as this one. We raced to see who could come up with the best 10 links. (I win.)

RAWR

2009-12-19T13:47:00.001-08:00

Okay. There's no excuse for this hiatus. BUT... life has kind of been a mess everywhere. I haven't even permitted myself to look at other blogs for fear I will get caught in it all and fail even harder at life. But AHH winter break is here.

:)

WINTER BREAK TO DO:
-update blog... every day... I promise to myself.
-all 7 college apps hehe
-watch glee
-UPDATE ETSY!
-finish Angela's birthday present... hah.
-write
-scholarships/competitions
-write my OPP for speech and debate woot
-hang out with ppl :)

There's more for sure... but that's already a massive, impossible list.

Good luck me.

Last note:
I love plum reds and black. And safety pins!
from: fusedmagazine

links

2009-10-23T23:11:00.001-07:00

I haven't done this in a while, but here are some goodies for all you lovely dearies.

I want to go somewhere cold just to see people like this.

Inspiring.

The best way to mend a booboo, besides a kiss.

Knock yourself out.

People really are creative.

Amazing, cute, and quite a dilemma.

Black and beautiful figures.

Would you like to live in these?

How to be invisible.

:)

I want.

Short list, but that's all for today. Must really work on those college apps...!!!

corsets

2009-10-19T19:45:00.001-07:00

There is something so seductive and beautiful about corsets. And it's really incredible how the form allows for so much creativity. There are SO MANY looks corsets can achieve... I actually think I just have a secret love for bust detailing. One of my projects to do before I die is to make a corset. These are so inspiring and amazing. Some designs to lust after:

Paul and Joe
cute and fresh... a girlish twist on the corset

Tuleh
super sweet and kind of reminds me of porcelain

Rue du Mail
i love how this is a reminiscent of a suit... corset + suit= amazing

Dior
strong and beautiful, love the vintage detailing

unknown
contrast between the small tighter bust area with the voluminous ruffles

Yves St. Laurent
hot. want one.

Peter Jensen
looks like denim. denim ruffles on a corset? lovely. good combination of textures and surprisingly unique. love the golf/sporty mood

Carmen Marc Valvo
subtle scalloped edges on netted lace corset, great contrast to loose gold pants

Isaac Mizrahi
adorable

Thakoon Panichgul
love the unusual print, a fresh take on a piece usually made with lace, leather

Antonio Berardi
sheer fabric sprinkled with sequins, seductive and glamorous

Bottega Veneta
relaxed, clean, crisp. a corset in the cleanest form

Dolce and Gabbana

classy shape, gold, nice fabric texture

all pictures via: fashion moment

hair envy

2009-10-19T15:32:00.000-07:00

So I stumbled on this and well. It's interesting. First things first though... I'm literally turning into a witch envying her hair. It's amazing.

Second, I really like her outfit; it's super appropriate with the furry skirt and climbing floral top. Way to incorporate theme and fashion and look good doing it. Good job Blake Lively.

This reminds me, I really want to see Where the Wild Things Are. I haven't hit the movies in a disgustingly long time and it's about time. Maybe after my early application is done...

By the way, nude pump love <3.

Now Playing: Shooting Stars - Bag Raiders
Now Reading: The World Without Us - Alan Weisman

gorgeous

2009-10-15T21:32:00.001-07:00

from cherryblossomgirl

I think I'm in love.

here we go~

2009-10-12T21:00:00.000-07:00

So. It's time for another rambly life post haha.

Hum.. It's senior year and well. Actually it isn't that bad. My academics are relatively balanced and not TOO difficult. Extracurriculars are piling up but eh. What else is new.

This year I joined Mock Trial, basically to kind of try something new. It's been pretty good so far, although I need to work on a specific character for my witness statements. Other than that, I'm also trying to get in Speech and Debate again this year... not sure how well that is going to turn out. It's pretty difficult to find the time to prepare and go to the tournaments, but I would really like to compete again in OPP or try out Impromtu speaking or Parliamentary Debate.

Marching Band has been... alright. Not the greatest year for me for a number of reasons, but I still love the people and friendships forged through marching band. Definitely one of the best experiences of my high school life; I will miss it when it's over.

Howler, Amnesty, and ATA have been all pretty good. I'm just trying to stay on top of stuff and not die. Heh.

This year has been pretty good in part because ... I don't know. I guess over the summer I realized how awful last year was, and how much of it was made worse by my constant complaining and whining. This year, I'm vowing to stay optimistic, and actually focus and get things done. It cuts down on the complaining and life is much nicer :). Though last year was really hectic, I'm glad that I learned a valuable lesson about balance and stress-management... and basically learned how to just suck it up and DO IT.

However... college apps. I really need to get going on that. I've started, but I pretty behind as of now. I think I'm applying early; if I manage to get in somewhere, it'll be so nice just KNOW in like December. I'll basically be home-free for like 6 months... Ah...

Early apps are due Nov. 1 so uhm... yeah. I'm working on it.

Hm. I think that's about all for now. I'll leave off with some provocative fashion photos from the Fendi S/S 2010 collection. More about this collection soon.

Now Playing: Syndicate - The Fray (BABY close your eyes... don't open 'til the morning light~)

inspire me

2009-10-03T22:45:00.000-07:00

Just some pictures that inspired me... I should work on college apps or something blah...

totally gorgeous lingerie
i definitely want... would be amazing in black paired with sheer tops
anyone know a good place to get sheer/lace bras?

rocker and amazing

sexy and seductive

i love how its victorian and modern at the same time
the ruffles are dainty and beautiful

THIS is AWESOME. definitely a DIY idea for the future....

from where the wild things are.... LOOK AT THAT SKIRT!!! WANT!

gorgg

i love this... it's at once cute, hippie-like, and sexy
DIY project for the future :)

pictures from: fashiontoast | atsuii

recent lkbks

2009-10-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

I'm not even going to talk about how awful I've been at updating, because that much is quite apparent.

Recent lookbooks:

Wearing: lace vintage shirt | blue skirt | studded belt

Wearing: heather grey and red striped dress | converse hightops

Wearing: square shirt | bleached and studded jeans (DIY by me) | U.O. grey oxford heels

http://lookbook.nu/jasminechang
Now you can hype through Facebook, Twitter, and others!
Check it out! :)

More to come later.

lookbook: oh, SUBURBIA~!

2009-09-20T13:40:00.000-07:00

ARGH... I'm awful. I have to update more... which I TOTALLY PROMISE I WILL soon... Senior year is okay... I'm much better at time management... :)
Which gives me no excuse to not update...
Blah...

Wearing: printed button-up shirt | studded ankle boots | lace slip
LOOKBOOK: now you can hype through facebook! :)

You can see my DIY article on studding the boots here.

Woot. More to come... pinky promise with a thumbprint.

lookbook: 090911

2009-09-12T21:39:00.001-07:00

Ssenior year has started... Have kind of lots to write but...

I'll write more later. Quick post before I'm off to do homework. Woot.

Wearing: blue collared jacket || floral shirt || black patent belt

SCRUB - A - DUB - DUB

2009-08-16T00:57:00.000-07:00

So. Hello all. I thought a lot today so uhm... I'm deeply sorry for yet another rambly post. Skip ahead if you'd like.

First things first, I attended my grandmother's friend's memorial service in the morning. I don't really remember much about her, but I do remember her encouraging my sister and I to eat! eat! eat! more food, and her exclaiming about how tall we've grown. I remember her kindness better than her face... which I suppose is a good thing. The service was okay; it didn't really hit me until I saw her face in the open casket and saw all the relatives up close and crying. My mom did too, which made made throat tight and well. It felt pretty surreal. May she rest well in peace, uhm, wherever she is.

Anyway, that got me thinking about death and how it was so ingrained in our lives but how it happens to just everyone. It's sort of like a guaranteed tragic ending to every person. I mean, death isn't always tragic, but you know what I mean. And at first it felt unfair that it was bound to happen, but then I thought about how there are so many happy things that are bound to happen to. And I know this sounds really cliche and boring and obvious, but well. I thought of it today. Life is basically a random jumble of pretty much equal parts of good and bad, and no matter what century we are in, or where we live, or whatever, I think it's all about the same. So, that makes it incredibly important that we make it a little better for ourselves, other people, and the world. And even though in the long run no one really cares that you thanked the man in the blue cap who help open the door for you, I like to think that it makes up for a bruise on that man's life. So today I thanked a man who helped me clear my table.

Sorry to get philosophical on everyone... heh. Back to normal speak.

We went to Costa Mesa today and saw a yard sale, and I squealed because your trash is most likely my treasure. We walked over and I FOUND OLD-SCHOOL CAMERAS. YES. I got the Pentax Spotmatic and two lenses with it for $35 and I am HAPPY. Knowing my mom took a photography class in college, I asked about her experience with it. She said that the whole semester, she and a friend did a project on these people in Hawaii living on the beach. No jobs, nothing fixed, just every single day out on the beach. They lived in tents, had children, and peed in a hole in the sand. My mom and her friend took pictures of them, and eventually became friends. She said they even had parties out there with them. Her teacher loved her photos and kept them. She said she'll dig up the photos and let me see. When she told me that story, I totally had newfound respect for my mom. And a new perspective on her as a person. She seemed young and daring, artistic, happy, and well. Hippie-like. I think I would've liked to see her then. Anyway, she really inspired me and I definitely must find time to play with my camera.

And the reason I don't have much time to fool around with Lawrence (his name) is because I've been cleaning my room like mad. I don't know what's wrong with me. I usually avoid cleaning like the plague because I'm lazy, so it actually gets pretty messy, but now I know the real reason why I don't clean. It's because I'm INSANE. When I get started cleaning, I get really really REALLY meticulous and clean EVERYTHING and organize EVERYTHING and rearrange EVERYTHING. And I'm blessed with a lot of stuff: clothes, bags, scarves, yarn, beads, chinese knotting string, books, etc. etc. and just. I actually took out like half of my tiny beads and rearranged them so they saved space and weren't all mixed up. AND I'm tired of cleaning, because I've been scrubbing along for like 4 days but I can't stop. It must get clean.

It's ridiculous.

Anyhoo, I think I'm done rambling. An apology to all for the lack of fashion input, lookbook pics, art, everything, recently. I will get brilliant, mind-ripping stuff to you all eventually... and quit boring you with my long rambly thoughts. But first, I must clean.

Scrub-a-dub-dub....

Now Playing: Everything's Gonna Be Alright - Sweetbox

Btw, I think this is by far the most text-heavy thing I've ever written on my blog. I shall give myself a pat on the back.

Have a shining day everyone! :)

PICTURES WILL BE UP SOON

2009-08-12T23:19:00.000-07:00

ish.

I'm working on it. Heh.

Meanwhile... more rambling :).

I got my wisdom teeth out Monday. Not exactly the greatest experience in the world but eh. They are out. I am bleeding. I can't eat. That pretty much sums it up.

School is nearing at an amazingly frightening rapid pace and let's be honest. I'm scared shitless. Last year was a horror story and this year seems no different except there are now college apps in the crap. And more extracurriculars.

I must learn how to get off gchat and the damn internet.

uhm...

Here's an etsy find... I haven't done one of these in a while. I first found this etsy seller through her beautiful blog of fashion illustrations: Paperfashion. I seriously love her stuff. The drawings and paintings aren't too couture, which quite frankly turn me off a little because it's sort of unrelatable, and just are awesome. And beautiful. She even does custom designs! :)

Check out her etsy store!

Also, if anyone cares, I usually discover etsy finds through "Pounce", which can randomly pick through shops that just had a sale, or an undiscovered shop. Although sometimes I do get my links from other blogs... I know that's cheating but oh well. All for the beautiful things.

Now Playing: Umbrella - Marie Digby

Hope the sunshine is lighting up everyone's smiles! :)

heh.

2009-08-06T21:13:00.000-07:00

So, yes. It's been a while huh...? My apologies... got rather lazy during my trip. Pictures and journal entries WILL be coming up soon so no worries. They will be up... uh. Eventually. :)

Anyway, it feels pretty good to be back home. I miss the simple things... like good CLEAN air, wide roads, open spaces, amazing weather... the SUN. I haven't really done much excpet some summer homework, but once that's out of the way, my blog will definitely get some of its much needed attention.

Hm... I feel a little like rambling today. So, skip this part if it bores you.

Today was an example of why summer rocks. I woke up at ... 12 ish, drank some fresh juice, and then took a nap at 1:30. I woke up at 3:30, missed my marching band retreat (-_-), and talked to Franz and Lucy. Who, by the way, brought over some delicious food and company. Afterwards... lounged around on the computer... read some blogs and magazines (more fashion opinions later) and it was dinner time. Then we took a nice walk around the neighborhood, watched the sun set, and geezus. The air here really is amazing. So are the huge, leafy, green trees and flowers and EVERYTHING.

When we came home, I had an absolutely scrumptious bowl of watermelon and then took a bath. Yes, a bath. I haven't taken a bath in like a year and wow. It feels soooo gooood. All I was missing were the bubbles...

Anyway, this is way summer is amazing. Minus the homework... and all the other crap I have to do. But still. Gotta love the sunsets, the bright sunshine, the watermelon, and the baths.

:) Hope everyone is having a good one too!

Now Playing: Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

the beginning!

2009-06-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

AHH yes. We are stealing someone's wi-fi here so YES I HAVE INTERNET. So I figured I'll keep a travel diary journal thing because it gives me something to do that isn't AP homework...

EDIT: okay yeah... stolen wi-fi isnt the best way to upload a gazillion pictures. So for now, it's just going to be a lot of text. Pictures sometime soon, I promise.

So. First few days in Taiwan have been pretty cool.

PRELUDE: Airplane was gah small...the food was crappy, etc etc the usual. There were a ton of movies though. Which didn't really matter much because I slept for like 9.5 hours, and then I didn't want to start a movie in the middle... so I didn't get to watch WATCHMEN. It's okay though... I'll catch it some other time I suppose...

DAY ONE 6/24:
We arrived in Taoyuan around 6 AM and blah blah got to my grandma's house at around 8 AM. Then we had yummy breakfast and then unpacked for a bit, then we all took a nap. Blah blah... slept until around noon, woke up, had some delicious 米粉. Then me, my sister, and my grandma's helper walked to get some groceries and some desserts. Blah blah.... dinner. Met my cousin's finance... seems nice enough. Blah blah. Then we walked over to the malls across the street and shopped for a bit. It's freaking amazing how much Taipei has expanded since I was last here 2 years ago. Blah blah came home showered... (YES! Ugh Taiwan is so HUMID!) watched some TV and slept. Long day.

I just realized that the above must have been quite boring and painful to read. Sorry, it must be because I don't remember too much from being very very exhausted from the plane ride.

DAY TWO 6/25:
[[[journal notes]]]
6:20 AM: Just woke up from a nightmare... was going to go to prison for 38 days for attacking some dude with I think a shovel? I think it was at anger management camp or something. sister says this is a sign. To defend my dream-self, I gotta say that that guy was a real DOUCHEBAG. if I could only remember what happened... Anyway seriously very freaky and felt very real.
8:30 AM: Aunt came over... ugh... I really don't like her very much... She didn't really look at me... I guess I should be used to this. She does do a lot for me so that is good. But still.... UGH. frustrated. went upstairs and connected to a world half a globe away and felt much better.
10:20 AM: riding the bus with mom and sister on our way to lunch with 高阿姨, my mom's friend. she's really awesome. But sitting here on the bus... NOTE TO SELF: IT'S OKAY TO BE ALONE.

That's all for journal notes today. Here comes the real journal entry.
So we went to lunch at 鼎泰豐, which is this really famous restaurant famous for their 小龍包. I would have a huge load of pictures to show everyone but yeah. Read above. Anyway, YUM YUM It was good.

Afterwards, we had some time to kill before we went to get our backs straightened by this ... chiropractor I guess you could say? So we went to visit the kidergarten/tutoring place that my sister and I used to work at two years ago. They still remember us. :) :) I wish I took pictures because they are freaking adorable kids, but they were supposed to be napping, and I know I'll visit later.

After killing enough time, we got our backs straightened... yay yay. Then we went to have afternoon coffee/tea. My mom's friend loves afternoon tea so we always go. I LOVE THIS PART OF TAIWAN TRIPS. The cakes we ordered were DELICIOUS and BEAUTIFUL. Again, pictures soon.

EDIT: OH MY GOD. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO POST ABOUT THIS TRIP FOR LIKE TWO WEEKS. But I'm getting super lazy so I'll try to do it .... in bits and pieces. Here are the first two days as a taste.

More to come later...

a break

2009-06-22T19:24:00.000-07:00

I'm going to be gone for 5 weeks... to Taiwan, Singapore, and Malaysia.

So my blog is probably going to be pretty stagnant unless I find time to update.

Have a great summer everyone!!

SCHOOL IS OVER

2009-06-19T20:43:00.000-07:00

Life SHOULD get better.
:)

Summer is going to be busy...

More pictures up later.

lookbook: what do i say

2009-06-15T20:26:00.000-07:00

Wearing: black sequined tank | bullhead jeans | combat boots from gojane

Now Playing: Falling - Emmy Rossum

LOOKBOOK

222poem

2009-06-09T02:22:00.000-07:00

i dont know what to feel
its this tangled
blob of dirty string
and it has 11 dimensions
the truth, and 10 variations of lies
and im sitting here trying to figure it out
trying hard not to lie to myself
but it feels like when that happens
the truth i find
makes me the
ugliest, shallowest, most useless
person that i know
so i think
thats why i run
and add the 12th lie
the 12th dimension
and tangle the truth up more
in the blob of
dirty
string.

lookbook: today will be the day we reach the SKY~!

2009-06-02T22:44:00.001-07:00

Nothing too special today. I love the ruffles on my sleeves though. They are fun :).

Wearing: ruffle sleeve dress from Target | denim shorts | ribbed blue tights | brown cuff booties

LOOKBOOK

summer polyvore time!

2009-06-01T19:43:00.000-07:00

I haven't done this in forever, so it's officially time for some lusting.

My wist list... as of this hour. I'm sure it will expand in due time.

today will be the day we REACH THE SKY~! by jasjasjas featuring Carvela shoes

Click for more info.

1. Yellow sneakers. The epitome of SUMMER FUN.
2. Jewel and bauble encrusted. My favorite: so fun and pretty.
3. Quirky, weird, Japanese, sandals = instant love.
4. Can never have too many strappy brown sandals. They match everything. And I love this burnt shade of orange/brown.
5. Sweet cream flats with pretty cutouts. Cute for sundresses and shorts. I think I would string some plum colored satin ribbon through the holes for an ankle tie.
6. Sky blue loafers!! I want a boat to wear these on, but I think I'll settle for a stroll along the beach.
7. The purple is so pretty and I LOVE the criscrossing laces.
8. Look at those awesome studs. I really like how they are really small and just look ... psrinkled on.
9. Coral flats with a bow. So sweet and summery.
10. Love the dark teal, cutouts, and adorable little balls.
11. Love the cutouts on these sneakers. Plus, they are kind of obnoxiously bright. <3
12. White sneakers with a semi high top. Perfect and very old school.
13. Pretty color, and I love the detailing on the heel part.

Summer Dresses by jasjasjas featuring Vanessa Bruno

1. Those sheer fabric ruffles are really beautiful. It's so simple and elegant and FUN. I want to to make this.
2. The colors remind me of sorbet. :)
3. I don't know, I liked the way the colors faded into each other. Plus, it's cute.
4. FLORAL FLORAL FLORAL!! The colors are really fresh and vibrant on this one. I love floral dresses. They are the epitome of running around in meadows during the summer.
5. Simple t-shirt inspired shirt. Good for lazy simple days.
6. For a bit, I looked at this. At first, it kind of struck me as shapeless and boring... but I don't know. Now it seems really pretty in a very understated way. I think it would be important to wear this one right though.
7. Raspberry and ruffles. Sounds like some kind of truffle. :) I love it. It looks like it would be so much to swish around your legs.

Memorial Day Weekend at Lucy's and Franz's!

2009-05-31T15:43:00.000-07:00

Ah... Last weekend, our family went over to my mom's friends' house for a memorial day party.

All I can say is FOOD FOOD FOOD.

Enjoy the food porn, darlings.

Cheese puffs from TRADER'S JOE :)

BEST chips in the world. We have a large unopened bag... waiting to get devoured. Soon.

Salsa to go with the chips. :)

Their garden is absolutely amazing. They have so many vegetables and fruits and even GRAPES and a PASSION FRUIT tree. I have never seen a passion fruit flower. I agree with Franz: they are one of the most unique and beautiful flowers I've ever seen.

A new shoot. Isn't it beautiful? :) It makes me happy just looking at it.

Back to food. Lucy makes the BEST focaccia IN THE WORLD.

SALAD. So refreshing and delicious!!

Indian shrimp curry with coconut milk! SO GOOD.

And because Franz is German... there is of course, a few sips of beer. It was pretty light and refreshing. He gave/I stole some bottles because they are really pretty. (One of them is from the oldest brewery in the WORLD!) I think I'm going to put some flowers in these bottles, which are currently decorating my windowsill. :)

These corn fritters were TRULY GORGEOUSLY DELICIOUS. The corn was SO FRESH... Lucy said she had to go to a specific place to get it. Well, Lucy dear, it was WELL WORTH IT. :)

I HAD A MILLION OF THESE. Nothing beats these little bursts of sunshine!

This is my favorite part I think. Fresh strawberries with homemade whipped cream (which, now that I have tasted it, I shall conclude that it is INFINITELY BETTER than the crap that comes in a can). I must have eaten like 40 strawberries... But, no matter. I was happy and I didn't get sick! Teehehe

Then came the baklava. We had a tray with like 8 different kinds. Sweet, a bit like a piece of heaven.

Serena enjoying a goooood piece of baklava. :)

Lucy was very excited about this heart-shaped potato she found one day. She said she wanted to preserve it... anyone know how to preserve a potato? It does look like a little heart though... with a face!!

Ah... that is all, my dears. Hope you enjoyed them. And with all these... I think I'm going to go rummage through my cabinets for some food. I'm hungry now.

Now Playing: Battlefield - Jordin Sparks
(why does love always feel like a BATTLEFIELD?!)

Now Reading: Bonk: The Curious Coupling of Science and Sex - Mary Roach
(which, though it sounds strange and perverted, is a truly amazing book about the science of the sex. Don't tell me you were never curious.)

BOOKS AND STAIRCASES

2009-05-31T02:01:00.000-07:00

I've always loved books and recently I've come across a bunch of books incorporated into interior design.

These are literally amazing.

Organize your books by color!
from: styleandinspiration

Super space efficient.
from: apartmenttherapy

Also super space efficient
from: Levitate Architects

And now, as I am stumbling across all these amazing pictures, I have found some THRILLING photos of staircases. So, going off on a tangent...

Geezus... look at all those stairs...

WHEEEEEEEEE (I want this.)

For the skateboarder.

Levitated stairs... do you dare?
They look so clean and simple though!

Space! Storage! I love how they are slightly crooked.

Hanging stairs?

Waves of steel stairs.

Chunky, blocky, and excellent for tight spaces.

Whoa. Industrial. It acutually look me a while to find where the actual stairs were.

GLASS STAIRS!

Stairs to climb a mountain. Whew!

Love the dark stain. And it's supposed to be completely deconstructible so it will enver have to be destroyed. And good thing; these are so pretty.

Looks familiar? DNA STAIRS!

Whoa...whoa... WHOA.

Spiralling ... I would get so dizzy on these.

Stairs that look like they don't exist.

all staircase pictures from lorensblog (check out for more info) and abodesignco.

Conclusion: I'm going to have a staircase when I get a house. I don't care how small the actual place is... just I want staircases!!

a gatsby window

2009-05-20T21:27:00.000-07:00

So at night, when I walk into my room, there's this green/red/blue flashing light in my backyard. It's really bizarre, because I CAN NOT figure out what it is... and when I walk towards it, it seriously just disappears. I feel like Gatsby.

I wonder what I'm missing in my life though. What am I wishing for?

Probably too many things.

Anyway, that aside, I think I love reading in candlelight. I'm probably destroying my already terrible eyesight, but well, shoot me. I love it. My sister says this picture looks like I belong to some cult. Tell her she's wrong.

Now Playing: 파니핑크 (Fanny Fink) - River
I LOVE this song... it's so relaxing...

love me more

2009-05-19T22:01:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty uneventful, except I donated blood for the first time! It was definitely kind of scary, but overall it didn't hurt and was basically fine. I'm mostly just extremely tired and weak right now.

Hm... state testing going on now. My favorite thing in the world. AHH it's just such a waste of time... especially the science and history portions because everyone takes something different, and it's hard to standardize that.

Bleh.

I realized I have mostly stopped caring about this year. I feel so sick of everything. Summer is almost here and I can smell it in the air. But, I WILL TRY TO DO MY STUPID CALCULUS HOMEWORK.

Alright. That's it for me rambling.

I think I have fallen in love with these. They are so fun and ADORABLE. WANT WANT WANT!
From: Modcloth

On the topic of shoes...

from: elitechoice, shoeblog

Insane, no?
Apparently the heeless ones are comfortable...but I am skeptical. The first ones... just look painful. I don't even think they are meant to be worn. I actually like the second pair... but just, you know, insanity.

How to draw the line between functional fashion and just... art? Is fashion even supposed to be functional? Hm. Something to think about.

EDITORIAL FEAST!

2009-05-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

Photographer: Luis Monteiro.
Model: JP.
Magazine: Tatler.

I really want to go to Greece now... teehee
I love the first dress: the dainty lace white of her dress complements the white builindg in the background, and aren't white boots just enviously beautiful?
The second picture - I love the bust detailing and how the more delicate lace pattern in the bustier (I LOVE bustiers!) is translated into a larger, firmer, lace pattern on the skirt.
And the last picture: gotta love the attitude! Also, the contrast between the white building and the black dress - lovely!

Model: Lily Donaldson
Photographer: Camilla Åkrans

Beautiful, beautiful. The sexy allure in all these is absolutely delectable.
Love the fifth picture... she's revealing some gorgeously womanly curves!

Editorial: Fashion Bailout
Magazine: Vogue Italia
Issue: April 2009
Models: Darya Kurovska, Portia Freeman, Eliza Cummings
Photographer: Steven Meise

Dark, dismal, wonderful.
The cover is AMAZING, as are the rest of the photos.
I especially love the photo of the shoes: don't they look soft and worn and absolutely gorgeous? They remind me of fairytale shoes from hundreds of years ago...

***all photos from foto_decadent

at long last

2009-05-18T21:01:00.000-07:00

I haven't update in a looong time. My apologies: I kind of just stopped doing everything after all my tests were over.

AHH! Yesterday I bought theses amazing shoes at gojane.com. I definitely can't wait until they come... so excited to wear these over the summer to Taiwan!! And I'm just LOVING the studs.

Lalala~
On another note, I got my manuscript back today from Flume Press. Nope, didn't win, and didn't really expect to. But I was kind of looking forward to some deep feedback, but I didn't really get any... a little disappointed I suppose. It's okay, I'll just take from this and just try to improve! :)

Now Playing: Fuzzy Blue Lights - Owl City
If you guys haven't heard of Owl City yet, seriously go check them out! One of my favorite artists EVER.

Ahhh... will post inspiring fashion editorials and more random links soon!!

links

2009-05-08T21:55:00.000-07:00

I'm totally inspired by A Cup of Jo. Periodically, she will post links of random and interesting sites that she's found. So, MY TURN!!

Hello Spring.

Now you can watch all the frames at once!

Talk to strangers.

A love letter? or 400?

Haikus and Errors

Read some fairytales.

Ahh... so lonely...

Clean.

My two loves.

Delicate graffiti.

Ahh... That is all for today. Enjoy, everyone!!

art portfolio

2009-05-08T21:17:00.000-07:00

I'm working on my portfolio as a break from very draining AP tests.

A bad photo and a fashion illustration:

must...improve...

lookbook: catch me when i fall for you~

2009-05-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

Wearing: pink shoulder-tie shirt | denim vest | grey pleated skirt

http://lookbook.nu/look/135383-catch-me-when-i-fall-for-YOU

AHhhhh.... AP Calc test is coming up TOMORROW.

I must go study.

lookbook: strut your stuff

2009-05-04T21:38:00.000-07:00

Ah... thank you everyone for the encouraging comments. Yes, I will get through this madness. It's awesome to know that you guys are all out there for me. :)

Today's lookbook:

Sorry about the repeated shoes... My friend edited three version for Lookbook and I'm much too lazy to go crop each one.

Wearing: black backless tunic | studded belt | combat boots from GoJane.com

http://lookbook.nu/look/134673-strut-your-stuff

I'm working on a portfolio for art. I'll post pictures as soon it's a decent collection.

frustrated

2009-05-01T23:41:00.000-07:00

Warning: This is going to be my extremely long and rambly post about my little failures and massive thoughts. Haha, it seems like I have one of these every month or so...

This week has been pretty much awful. I had a bunch of huge tests and projects due. On Monday, I didn't sleep because I was working on this research paper, and I didn't get around to studying from my physics final because I was working on that essay.

Turns out I didn't do so well, and it looks like an A in physics is impossible. And if my essay is no good, an A in english is also pretty impossible.

I know I shouldn't care. I probably don't. But it doesn't matter anyway, because I will never be good enough for my mom.

It feels like no matter what I do, it's never enough. I mean, she doesn't say that to me, but I can feel it. Her whole life has revolved around her daughters and I am too afraid to find out what happens when I destroy that kind of expectation.

I'm scared to do anything that will upset her, but then again, I refuse to do a lot of what she wants from me. Whichever way I go, I am in eternal regret. Case in point: course requestors for next year. I want to take basically a bunch of art, music classes and communication courses, but I feel like if i don't take a certain number of academic classes, I'm setting myself up to fail in her eyes.

I don't know what to do. I'll end up regretting what I do, no matter what.

I don't think I know who I am anymore. I'm not sure if its acutally ME that wants this or this, or if I like this or this. I'm too worried about how it will affect my mom.

I keep saying, just two more weeks, just a little longer. It'll be over soon. But there's so much to DO. I don't know how to split my time up... I think I need to sacrifice something.

I wish I could go back to being a little kid, and just KNOW things. KNOW that mushrooms taste yucky, and KNOW that life is full of infinite possibilities.

This week, I cried a lot. I can't explain it. It must be the stress of AP tests and finals and picking courses and studying studying studying. But it just seems like the tears keep coming and I feel like such an idiot.

I expect a lot out of people. I feel so disappointed when someone isn't there for me who I expect to be. Or if someone doesn't do something right or anything. Everything.

I think I'm bound to live in the past. I keep thinking about these memories and they're echoing in my head and I don't where to let them fade away. I need to learn how to forget.

What do you do when people change?

What do you do when YOU change? How do you know you've changed? How can you know anything when you don't even know yourself?

I have so much to do...

Goodnight, darlings.

a sestina

2009-04-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

I actually kind of dreaded writing this for my creative writing class, but I ended up having a ton of fun with it. It's my first sestina and probably the longest poem I've ever written.

Saturday Morning Visitations

The rain is dashing down slowly, in a delirious run
down the cracked window, wood framing the delicious
glass. It glides down the slick surfaces, making new and continuous mountains
and rivers in front of her eyes. She sits and imagines ghosts
that must live in those destroyed paths
and thinks about past love and a familiar stranger.

She turns away from the window, choosing to ignore her stranger and stranger
thoughts tracing down her window. She gets in her car to make a run
to the nearby grocery store. She crosses the dirt paths
outside, muddy with rain. She wants to buy strawberries, how delicious
they will taste on this gloomy summer day! Her childish excitement ghosts
over her filmy windows, until it seems like mere strawberries can move the mountains

of her past. But her happiness is quickly dashed when she finds the usual mountains
of green strawberry baskets gone and replaced by things stranger
than she has ever seen. There are spiky fruits instead of her strawberries, now merely ghosts
of better grocery experiences. The tears come and because she is afraid her eyeliner will run,
she rushes out of the store and into her car, enjoying the delicious
cold blast from the air conditioner. She wipes her makeup before it can make paths

down her flushed cheeks when she sees him across the street, across the paths
of painful recognition. He doesn’t see her, and she is glad because mountains
have moved into her heart. Dark and cold they are, stealing the delicious
warmth of recovery that has made a fragile entrance in her heart, turning him into a stranger
not long ago. She sits in her car, thinking of how she would like to run
in front of him and declare her presence. But she must remind herself that he is just one of many ghosts

now. If she ran towards him with open arms, she would certainly fall because his arms, ghosts
as they are, are made of nothing but memories. Their past is merely an accident, paths
now weighted down with prickly briars and heavy, old perfume. She wants to run
her fingers through her hair, but feels like her heart, heavy with those mountains,
may have just lost the strength to do that. She drives home through unfamiliar roads, until the stranger
and stranger landscape tells her she is in an unknown town. To her, this is a delicious

discovery, because maybe here, she will relearn the feeling of detached remembrance. Now, the delicious
sun is peeking out and the rain is gone, those droplets quickly becoming ghosts
on her windshields. She thinks, he must become a stranger, stranger
than the prickly fruits she saw in the grocery store, and much more inaccessible. If their paths
crossed again, well then, her heart will not move. She will be like mountains.
Having settled this, she gets into her car and begins to run

the engine, humming strange and stranger songs as she retakes paths
into her hometown. On her way back, she spies and purchases some delicious strawberries, no longer ghosts
of rainy grocery trips. With her strawberries, there is no way even mountains can destroy the way her heart will now run.

lookbook: the mountains are too high, the rivers are too wide

2009-04-29T22:54:00.000-07:00

Wearing: Grey Oxford Heels | black tights | studded belt | knitted white tank

http://lookbook.nu/look/130897-the-mountains-are-too-high-the-rivers-are-too-wide

crash and burn

2009-04-28T22:08:00.000-07:00

...monday night

2009-04-27T22:04:00.000-07:00

It's going to be terrible night. A big paper due and my physics final... WHEEE

To cheer myself and everyone else up!

This is so cute and cheery! And definitely funny...

Smile, everyone.

from: My First Dictionary

work

2009-04-26T20:22:00.000-07:00

I've been doing work all day....
Time for my stress reliever.

I want hair like this. ENVY. (from stylepill.wordpress.com)

Isn't this so happy and carefree? Life will revert to this...after 3 weeks. (from Lorick, Spring)

Lastly, two photos from me, unedited. The first was taken at San Francisco, and the second was taken at my school. More pictures to convince myself that it will all be over SOON.

Now Playing: Moulin Rouge - Bolero
Now Reading: Anne of Green Gables

fashion and fairytales

2009-04-26T00:03:00.000-07:00

I love this shoot.
Yes, Peter Pan is spelled wrong.

From Singles - Go Ara and I can't find his name.
Source: soompi.com

a rumination

2009-04-25T22:45:00.000-07:00

Isn't it strange that everyone wants to be loved?
I wonder if romantic love is that much more different than any other kind of love.
Maybe it's the children that have it right; love is the same love for everyone.
Maybe it just all boils down to who you like talking to and who you enjoy spending time with.
Then, I suppose, that unconditional love seems a little ridiculous.
Why should anything be unconditional?
How could you love a child, even if they grow up and become monsters?
But, we are strange things.
I think love is so hyped up, that inevitable I will be disappointed. Maybe it isn't all that good.
Maybe we are all reaching for something fantastic and unworldly, an emotion that only belongs in places of imagination and Disneyland.
I think a kiss will taste like candy. Like stolen candy, because stolen candy always tastes better.
I want to love more. I think I'm too selfish and demanding. I'm not selfless enough to love many people.
I want to love more. I want to love.
I don't think there is someone you are fated to be with. If there is, well, it just seems like there are so many ways to go wrong.
I think love is just a lot of work. Not in a bad way really, but it's all about the time and effort you put it.
I suppose certain people are better suited for each other than others, but is it really possible to find someone you are fated to love?
I wonder how you know if you find your fated person, if that does exist.
I wonder how it's so easy to love a flower, a food, but sometimes it's just impossible to even like a person.
People are strange things.

all photos: flickr.com

i've been lazy...

2009-04-24T23:09:00.000-07:00

I realized that I don't update this blog nearly as often as I would like to. I'm just an incredibly lazy person.

But, I have VOWED, VOWED I TELL YOU, to update this more.

This past week has been pretty terrible in terms of school. I didn't have that much homework, but I've been going to sleep really really late every night. There must be a leak somewhere, my time is rushing down the drain.

The next couple of weeks are going to be pretty hellish, with AP Tests, some early finals, my english paper, heh calculus test, many many AP Euro sessions, and quite a few jazz performances. Not to mention, our ATA club is starting a new campaign...

Okay, I'll just not think about it right now. I'm hoping that updating my blog everyday should help me relieve some stress and give me a little bit of sunshine for the coming weeks.

Haha, I'm done rambling. Here is the Etsy Find of the Day. Oh, and sorry for the lack of outfits, but I've been so lazy that I've been wearing jeans and henleys almost all week. I know... so disappointing...

These prints are from DannyRoberts's shop. He draws AMAZING stuff, and many of his prints are renditions of popular bloggers like Rumi, Betty, and Karla.

I love the bright, eye-popping colors and the thin, graceful lines. When I look at these, it makes me really want to grab a piece of paper and just start drawing. The figures he draws are beautiful in such an ethereal, strange way, but that's why I love them.

Check out his store!

Also, pictures of my newest knitted project coming soon!

tuesday

2009-04-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

I think I just have demons to wrestle with. I think that the monsters are all gone already. It's just the invisible, the ghosts and demons that haunt me and haunt me... and I can't fall asleep at night anymore.

WHY

2009-04-20T21:45:00.000-07:00

WHY IS IT SO HOT.

It was 97 today. IT'S APRIL. APRIL!!

Back to school... Spring Break was okay I guess. I didn't do much hw-wise or hang-out-wise but I read and ate a lot.

Now we are back to our slew of fails.

Angela: so

i want to take a shower

except i cant

because i have lost my pj shirt

blarhg

Life is amazing, huh?

Sorry to be a pessimist, but it's HOT.

Now Playing: Jelly (Album Edit) - Capsule

sigh

2009-04-09T22:45:00.000-07:00

from: http://www.brigittesire.com/

exhausted

2009-04-08T22:21:00.000-07:00

It's been kind of a terrible week. Not a lot of sleep, tests, stress, irritation...

It's always before break that is the worst...teachers all want to cram in the tests before the vacation. I'm going to spend all of break trying to recover...

I really can't wait though. Today I called the Driver's Teen Academy thing and scheduled my lessons (yeah I know, I'm very behind) and the hair salon so I can finally get a haircut. It felt good to get things done...

But I'm so tired. I fell asleep in every one of my classes. Oh...dear...

Anyway, today I feel particularly uhm
I don't really know how to describe it. Like I'm running to try to catch up with everything. No matter how fast I go, or how much I try, it feels like the world is tumbling out of my control.

Time is moving so slowly... but I feel like when I finally wake up, the world would have come, gone, and left me all alone.

I'm scared of being alone.

Now Playing: Michelle Branch - Goodbye to You
...the good old stuff...

lookbook: black and black black

2009-04-04T23:48:00.000-07:00

Wearing: black top | black pleated skirt | black tights

http://lookbook.nu/look/111489-black-and-black-and-black

lookbook: book and libraries

2009-04-01T21:51:00.001-07:00

uhmm...I don't know what I was doing...but I was greatly amused by this picture. So. Yeah...

Wearing: light cotton blouse | lace scarf made by me | jean shorts | black tights | white slip-on canvas shoes | black bowling purse from RUCHE

http://lookbook.nu/look/109410-books-and-libraries

today...

2009-04-01T01:23:00.000-07:00

I keep falling asleep in class. I suppose it has to do with my incomprehensible desires to watch movies everyday, weeknights included.

The strangest thing happens when I fall asleep in music classes though. I start dreaming, but it's more like 5 second snapshots and lightning speed stream of consciousness. My brain dreams random RANDOM stuff, from like Italy to the composition of the ink of my pen. I don't really understand it. I've tried explaining how totally bizarre this is, but not only is it strange dreams, but it also occurs in the time frame of about one minute, and no one but James seems to really get it. Maybe we are just a pair of oddballs.

No, but seriously. Most BIZARRE thing EVER. And it only happens in music classes.

I always want to grab a pencil and a notebook and jot things down when I'm flying through surreal universes like that. It's like Freudian psychology or something... anyway, I'm sure it would make amazing inspiration for amazing poetry.

And yeah...my head lolls when I'm dreaming like that. James has confirmed that. (is embarrassed...)

I also fell asleep in AP Euro today. I really didn't mean to but uh...yeah. Apparently, Mr. Feldt was like: Jasmine. Jasmine. JASMINE. ... Lemiece, can you wake her up?

When I opened my eyes, everyone was staring at me. I was like: HUH?! and Mr. Feldt goes: I just wanted to let you know that Stalin is alive.

Mr. Feldt is sheer awesomeness. But geezus, that wasn't embarrassing at all....

So, I went home and took a 4.5 hr nap. Uhm... yeah. I woke up at 9:30 because James called me, suspicious that I was totally conked out. When he told me the time...let's just say there was profanity. An ample amount of it.

I'm kinda rambling but yeah.

Here are some poems written for my creative writing class:

a love poem
watch me dance
dance
dance with me
so maybe you don’t wanna dance?
no, no
dance with me
watch me
dance with you

temptations
if I touch you softly
can you hear me?
and if I say don’t go
don’t go
will you be able resist the
cherry red lips of Freedom
and come warm my grey mouth of loneliness
instead?

a celebration
I have netting on my legs
vines crawling up my calves
my thighs embossed with
lacy roses
there’s netting on my legs
scandalous, daring
oh! shocking!
I can feel the rush of
headlong apprehension
as I walk down the streets
strutting to the music
of my lace legs

Here's one that's sort of a found poem/inspired by a passage from the Life of Pi by Yann Martel (which is a great book.)

fear
i must say something
about fear
it’s life’s only true opponent

it’s sly! slipping into your mind like a spy
you are weakening, wavering…

quickly now! rash decisions: come come!
goodbye, hope! trust!

and then fear nestles softly in your memory
like a gangrene

and then it’s too late
and you will find
that somewhere in that wordless darkness
you lost
because you have never fought the opponent
who defeated you

Yup yup, I think that's all I have to say now...

Time to go read 20 pages of the FUN enviro lab manuel...

Now Playing: Tokio Hotel - Totgeliebt

lookbook: SIMPLE DUPLICITY

2009-03-30T19:41:00.001-07:00

Wearing: grey nightdress | vintage snakeskin belt | vintage riding boots

http://lookbook.nu/look/107965-SIMPLE-DUPLICITY

lookbook: tell me, darling

2009-03-26T00:05:00.000-07:00

Wearing: white knitted tank | armani gold skirt | footless tights | brown strappy sandals from MARKON

lookbook: paint me bright

2009-03-22T17:45:00.000-07:00

My first lookbook picture with someone else. :)
This is Samantha, my friend since grade school. Haha, she agreed to take a picture with me.

Don't you LOVE the colors in these pictures?

Wearing: painted silk skirt | white tank | vintage lace shirt | GoJane brown booties | studded belt | pearl earrings

http://lookbook.nu/look/102483-paint-me-bright

lookbook: sunkissed

2009-03-20T00:58:00.000-07:00

Wearing: taffeta hat | burgandy men's shirt, tied | white v-cut shirt | birkenstocks

http://lookbook.nu/look/100836-sunkissed

lookbook: aspire to inspire

2009-03-18T18:36:00.000-07:00

Wearing: black stretch top from GAP | grey pleated skirt | grey oxford heels from U.O. | black bowling bag from Ruche (thank you Vivianne and James! :) )

http://lookbook.nu/look/100052-aspire-to-inspire

lookbook: whisper a secret to that weed sprouting from concrete

2009-03-17T21:01:00.001-07:00

Wearing: Vintage silk striped blouse | studded belt | handknitted cardigan

http://lookbook.nu/look/99422-whisper-a-secret-to-that-weed-sprouting-from-concrete

for the polyvore james perse contest

2009-03-14T22:28:00.001-07:00

I still don't want to do homework....

see that arc over there? that's my yesterday. - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

for the polyvore yesstyle contest

2009-03-14T22:04:00.000-07:00

I don't feel like doing my homework...

so tell me darling...do you wish we'd fall in love...? - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

fashion photography

2009-03-13T22:42:00.000-07:00

Magazine: Marie Claire Italia March 2009
Editorial: Trancoso – Brasile 20/11/2008
Photographer: David Bellemere
Models: Tiiu Kuik & Michelle Buswell

Vogue Italia January 2009
Photo: Bruce Weber

Rinko Kikuchi
Magazine:i-D April 2008
Photographer: Matt Jones
photo by Neil Kirk
Marie Claire 2008
Gary: [GLWood + TheGLFactory Photography]

all photos:
http://community.livejournal.com/foto_decadent/

spring lust: a neutral symphony

2009-03-13T21:33:00.001-07:00

Polyvore must be set at a spring neutral color scheme, because the choices were flooded with cremes, light pinks, browns...mmmmm I love these colors.

090313-accessories - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

Looking at this ensemble is making me really happy...even if I can't get all of it...any of it.
1. I realized that I really black and gold together. It's classy without being overdone and its just SO PRETTY.
2. For some reason there are not that many brown aviators out there...well, at least I don't see that many out there. The coffee color of these would be perfect for spring.
3. I WANT BLACK STUDDED LEATHER GLOVES. I'm not really sure why...they just appeal to me. Well, they'll be useful at least; my hands are always freezing cold.
4. The haphazard mix of charms on this is beautiful.
5. The colors here remind me of spring. I don't really wear huge earring, but I want to change that. They can do so much for a look.
6. These remind me of earrings for a queen or something...so elegant and substantial. I love the very faint faint pink color of the rocks.
7. I want a cocktail ring. The color on this one isn't obnoxious or glaringly ostentatious = love.
8. Light colored bags are probably not a good idea for a messy person like me...but this one I PROMISE I will take care of. Promise.

090313-shoes - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

I'm sure you all were expecting a set of shoes soon. :)
1. I love the flowers and leaves on this shoe. It's a PERFECT sandal for the spring and summer.
2. These wedge heels are incredible. That's all I'll say. (Well, the crisscrossing straps are amazing too.)
3. These are so quaint and charming. I want to wear these with jeans, skirts, sundresses...
4. This is probably unnecessarily complicated...but I like unnecessarily complicated things. They are amazing...the excessive straps gives the shoes character, don't you think?
5. The tiny cutouts on these are totally adorable. I also like how even though the cutouts seem very feminine, the entire shoe doesn't look that girly at all. The combination of the laces, the cutouts, and the ankle wrap is kooky in the best kind of way.
6. I have never really considered neutral-colored boots before...always thought they would be hard to match. But these are so beautiful, I may just have to reconsider.
7. I loove the simplicity of the cutouts and of course, the laces.

etsy find of the day

2009-03-09T23:41:00.000-07:00

I feel INCREDIBLY productive today. I have a lot of my homework done for the week... it's going to be a good week.

And that reminds me...my loong looong rant. I think as long as I just get through everyday little by little... it'll all be good. Or at least tolerable.

Anyways I'm really excited. I'm going to get SO MUCH SLEEP! :)

I had too much time...had to find something to do so here is the etsy find of the day!

I love these scrabble tile pendants! The etsy seller has SO MANY DESIGNS to choose from....oh I could spend forever on this site!

Here are some:

THIS IS FOR ALL YOU PEOPLE TAKING BIO.
ART NOVEAU.
I want to GOOOO THEREEEE.

Check out her shop!

lookbook: i want to fold right up into a paper plane

2009-03-06T23:09:00.000-08:00

etsy find of the day

2009-03-06T21:27:00.000-08:00

So I'm trying to get back to knitting and crocheting and just crafting in general. I think it will help me relieve a lot of my stress and give me something to focus on, even if it is small.
Anyway, so I was browsing etsy and I saw this LOVELY handspun and handyed yarns. The colors are so rich and gorgeous... and romantic. I also love how there's a bit of metallic thrown in there, making it much more interesting.

Check Loop's etsy store for more handspun/handyed yarns!

here comes the long long...ramble

2009-03-05T21:03:00.000-08:00

Okay.
I'm not doing well.
I'm being a whiny brat and complaining about life and school.
...
Sigh. It's awful. I think I have lost all will to work. It seems like everything I'm doing is just so I can compete with other people, and I really don't think I care that much.
But
I do.
I'm a competitive person. Sometimes I don't let it show, but in my head I'll be thinking, "Oh, that person did so much better..." and I'll feel like a failure because I can't do what they can.
Hmm...not the right way to put it I guess. A lot of the time, I know I CAN do it...but I'm too lazy to actually put all the time and effort into something that I really...don't care about much.
Which kind of brings me full circle.
I guess what it is is that I care about ... like the grades and the outcome, but I really don't care much about the classes. Which basically makes for a lazy, complaining, whining brat that still wants her As.
I'm rambling. But I need to get this out.
Anyway, recently I've been feeling that no matter what I do, I don't know how to do better. Studying doesn't seem to help, especially because I'm so unfocused.
I guess it comes down to that. I should just bite the bullet and just focus and work and study and just plow through anyway. Who cares if it doesn't matter in life?
But I really... when I think about my failures, I stand paralyzed. I lose the willpower and the ability to do well. I just keep thinking how this will manifest into an avalanche of failure later on.
And I can't just not care. I don't know any other way to measure my abilities or my talents. Grades are something solid and definite that I can see. I don't have the self-confidence to pick out my own abilities myself.
Not to mention it's junior year and I feel like if I screw up now, my life is like...destroyed. And it's also the year when all people really talk about is grades. And I feel like an idiot: they are doing better than me, and working hard, and sometimes still not satisfied. It makes me think ... what am I then with my grades? Where is my worth?
There's nothing to distract me either. Life is literally all school. Extracurriculars included but usually that is still stressful and not a relief.
And friends and family. My family, well, my mom expects a lot from me. I guess she doesn't always say so, but I feel like if I fail, I fail her, and that will literally be the worst thing I can think of.
Friends. I don't know. I always feel incompetent when I'm with my friends. They are so obviously THEM, so obviously ... confident in who they are. They are down in the hell hole with me, but I think... at least they don't have the incredible feeling of constant and ever impending failure. And I'm not sure it's the best thing that I'm always with these people who know exactly who they are. Or SOMETHING about who they are. It makes me feel even more insecure.

Sometimes I wish I can just...leave. Go somewhere else. Figure out who I am and what I CAN do, instead of sitting here, learning just how much I can't do. How much I can't do, in comparison to those CAN.

Wow, that was a really long post. ...er...
I don't know. I'll probably just...work hard and do my best and try to ignore that bottomless feeling of permanent failure. Just needed to get this out.

lookbook: sick with memory

2009-03-05T20:47:00.000-08:00

http://lookbook.nu/look/90961-sick-with-memory
Wearing: white knit tank | bobble scarf | light yellow cardigan

Just playing around with textures and monochromatic palettes.

lookbook: ooolala firetruck nails!

2009-03-05T20:41:00.000-08:00

http://lookbook.nu/look/90357-ooolala-firetruck-nails

Wearing: black silk blouse | black tights | mohair knitted wrap | jean shorts | brown cuff booties | silver rings | skeleton key

I finally got my red nail polish. Teehee very excited. Before, I was always scared of ... well, colors really. I feel like I'm finally breaking free and being more me! :)

streams of last night's thought vomit

2009-03-02T22:30:00.000-08:00

Sorry if that's a disgusting title but that literally was what last night was. A thought vomit.

i like the word firetruck
if i have a baby im going to teach him/her that word
right after he/she learns mommy and daddy
FIRETRUCK! FIRETRUCK
FIRETRUCK!!!
if i slouch a bit, i can feel my hair on my thigh
theres a piece of hair in my mouth
my underwear has hot pink lace on it
its peeking through my shorts
i need to shave
i keep forgetting to
i want the sun to sleep next to me
my bruises hurt
they are kind of pretty
blooming
there is an itch on my right foot
should i scratch it?
i just bit my tongue.
ow.
should i wash my hair today
my ears are disgusting
i like wearing shorts when its really really cold
im retarded
i like when my pinky is really cold
and when i hold warms hand
it feels awesome
there is plastic wrap next to me
my euro homework is on 4 different colors of paper
i want a third piercing
sometimes
pervertedly
i want a tattoo as well
somewhere secret
like a flower blooming in no man's land
i realize that i dont like tutoring thomas
i like the way string
falls through my fingers
my fingers are cold
im always scared i will get frostbite one of these days
do you ever...
when you smell something
does it make you think of stuff?
im sort of avoiding a certain bottle of lotion right now
its sitting there
condensation beads inside
when i put it on sometimes
i feel almost sick with memory

i have a secret.

sometimes
when I spin a little in my wooden chair
with the nine cut-out panels
something rushes out
and I whisper out my secret
shhh! don’t tell but
(i’m an imposter. A Pretender!)

my heart is beating too fast

lookbook: liquid copper in my glass bottle

2009-02-28T15:25:00.000-08:00

lookbook: birthday wishes

2009-02-23T23:46:00.001-08:00

Sorry, I've been really lazy and am only posting outfits. I'll write more after this death week passes.

Wearing: Grandpa Cardigan | Guess Sequined Tank | Brown Strappy Sandals

Now Playing: Play - Whole Again

lookbook: oh simple thing...where have you gone...?

2009-02-21T21:01:00.000-08:00

wearing: grey tank | cut out sweater | vintage belt | jean shorts | ankle tie flats

http://lookbook.nu/look/83116-oh-simple-thing-where-have-you-gone

now playing: The White Tie Affair - If I Fall

lookbook: can you take it all away...?

2009-02-18T22:55:00.000-08:00

Wearing: white rib tank | cream henley | blue ribbed tights | blue flouncy skirt | brown cuff booties

Now playing: Cascada - Can't Stop the Rain

lookbook: and she said that a broken heart was just bad luck

2009-02-14T13:24:00.000-08:00

etsy find of the day

2009-02-13T22:24:00.001-08:00

In case you didn't already know, I LOVE shoes. They can really change an outfit, and i would say, along with bags and jeans, they are probably the best wardrobe investments.

So, I was THRILLED when I found these handmade shoes on etsy.

Pictures from mohop

I am a really big fan of versatile clothing and I absolutely love how, with just a ribbon change and a manipulation with the side loops, you can create completely different looks.

I really want this...

Check out their etsy store!

i really want to go shopping

2009-02-13T22:13:00.000-08:00

left and right - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

Polyvore again. Two outfits...
I really like the tuxedo jacket because it matches EVERYTHING and I want those pleaser leggings.

Now Playing: The White Tie Affair- The Enemy

ahhhhhhh

2009-02-12T23:10:00.001-08:00

It hasn't been a good week.

I'm looking forward to the weekend.

Listening to sappy songs and pining and sometimes crying.

I was reading my enviro homework
and this picture makes my heart tear...

Sorry to be so depressing.

Now Playing: Golf and Mike - You

lookbook: see that key around my neck...? throw it away for me...

2009-02-11T01:03:00.000-08:00

LOOKBOOK

etsy find of the day

2009-02-08T21:56:00.000-08:00

So, I promised to myself I would actually try to make this a daily thing.
I really want to try to showcase as many etsy sellers as possible because I know how hard it can be to get some business.

So anyway, my birthday is coming up and like the materialistic kid I am, I was looking at rings I wanted.

And I came across these!

The site has SO MANY different drawings. I LOVE them all, they are so cute and unique. Not to mention, each ring is ONLY $8.00.

I DEFINITELY want a few for my birthday (the TREE ONE FOR SURE.)

Check dillondesigns out!

picture feast

2009-02-07T22:30:00.000-08:00

...I swear I'll write some more in this blog....
but for now FEAST on some lovely photos.

from SindelChaos
from somewhere on google...don't remember:

from: anthropologie

from: rodarte

from: free people

from: net-a-porter

from Alexander McQueen

from habutextiles

from purlbee:
from me:

Haha...this can go on and on...
for now I'll spare you guys.

so it's raining

2009-02-07T16:26:00.000-08:00

And raining is symbolic and nostalgic and
it's an appropriate time to write a poem.

rain

it swells and swells
and the symphony numbs my ears
and soon all i can hear
is the profound silence
of the rain hitting
the taupe bricks outside
that surround the little garden of bamboo.

old polyvore stuff

2009-02-07T16:06:00.000-08:00

GREY HUES
my wist list.

Grey Grey Hues - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

BURGUNDY LOVE
I know...COLOR.

Burgundy Love - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

LITTLE BLACK DRESS
what I did instead of going to formal

little black dress - by jasjasjas on Polyvore.com

teehee im procrastinating

2009-02-07T15:42:00.000-08:00

Bleh...must write a dialectical journal on Pride and Prejudice...but
I don't want to.

So...
MORE PICTURES YAYE
These are just old pictures from Lookbook
transferring some from my old blog and there are some new ones too

"owen is the camera"

"and if i stand here alone in this dust"

"hello hello"

"i'm just a boderline girl"

"oh a summer gift in january"

"what you will never know"

"we are all beautiful people"

Okay...I should really get that dialectical journal done.

I might post some Polyvore stuff before I start again...haha
MORE PROCRASTINATION
YAYEEE.

Now Playing: Shiny Toy Guns-I Owe You a Love Song

okay so i give up

2009-02-06T21:31:00.000-08:00

I just...have no will to go transfer all my posts from before so...
visit: http://tehchugger.livejournal.com/
if you want to see my older posts.

THIS WEEK'S LOOKBOOK:

monday: "i owe you a love song~!"

tuesday: "i guess you needed to be free"

wednesday: "i feel like a little girl"

friday: "grey marble day"

lalala~
I'm pining right now...the rain always makes me pine.
I also want my dark red nail polish I ordered last week.

Three Day Weekend!! :) (lots of homework yay?)

I currently working on shredding one of my shirts.
From the way it's looking right now, I'd say its not going to be a success. But I really love the look...so I will probably get a white tank and shred that after I get a little more practice.

My head is spilling with ideas, but I feel like I can't do anything.

Must be the rain.

Now Playing: Cascada-Everytime We Touch